Pieces of Santus

For you, wherever you are..

Pathetic is probably one word to describe it. It has been only several months since the last time we met, and I have been missing you so badly. There is almost no time available for having fun. They tends to find me with “the empty look” and I’m tired of hiding it. I’m not being myself. I guess it was you, who had entered my mind. Frankly, these days I found myself day dreaming. We go together, singing our song, laughing, exploring all the places. Yeah, we were having fun! What a wonderful life!

Unfortunately it was only in my mind. Damn, why am I acting like these? All the time, I wish that you were here. I miss the smile on your face, I miss all the enthusiasm that you spread to me. Where are you? I’m looking everywhere, but I could not find you. Read the rest of this entry »

Why do people celebrate their birthday, doesn’t it mean that they are celebrating one year closer to their  dead?  That’s a very strange way of seeing a birthday.  I’m sure this interpretation was mentioned in one of Kyle XY episode in season 1. In negative thinking point of view, it is valid to say something like that. Furthermore, sometimes people say I’m getting older but there are many plans, resolution or goals that I wish I had achieved before I finally reached this age.

In the opposite way, a birthday off course for many people is a special time where we should be thankful, that we  are still alive and given all the things we have,  friends, family, job, etc.  Having been 23 year old, 2 days ago make me realize that I have been just following the flow without look at the direction where I should have gone. Obviously, be patient and having a never lasting spirit is not easy.

Hmm another reflection? I don’t know why I tends to enter the mellow zone these days. Anyway I’m just happy that many people remember my birthday. Thank you for every member of Q2 inductee, anyone who send sms,email & give comments  on Friendster especially for those who give presents :). Yeah, I love present. Anyone who forget to give one, please don’t be hesitate to give them to me. I will absolutely accept it. He..he..he…. Thank you guys, I really appreciate it! I wish each and everyone of you have a wonderful life!

do you know  May 29 was celebrated as Oak Apple Day?

still far away from where I should be, and frankly I feel sad when I heard this song …. a great song with a very deep message

Chris Rice - Untitled Hymn (Come To Jesus) Lyrics

Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live! Read the rest of this entry »

Yeah, finally a weekend free of homeworkJ, I finally can write something in this blog again. Well something bothering me this week. Some of my colleagues start to call me “the great” (hueeeks…..3xs). Basically it is not a big deal it is just the interpretation of the nickname. You need to know that it has nothing to do with my skill.

That nick name was just a joke while I was still in the university. The funny thing is I was the one who give that nick name to one of the smartest students in my year. Unfortunately, somehow he and several friends managed to make it become my nicknameL, but I’m sure it was not because I have great skill. I was just an average back then. May be it was related to my head size I guess :)).

Once again, it is nothing really, just a joke among friends. I don’t like to hear more statements sound like “They said you are ‘the great’, why it takes along time of you just to do a simple task!” (Disturbed mode on) Hmm, I’m still on “coding stammer zone”, this is what happened since I haven’t done any programming after I finish my final year project until I got a job. Aside from the nickname thingy  and may tv series episodes that I have missed, it has been a great week here. Looking forward to Monday!

Udah seminggu nih disini.  Ga tau banyak kabar anak-anak IF03 selain dari planet-if.  Mau gimana lagi selama 3 bulan ini ga bakal bisa ol via messengger & check email di yahoo or gmail selama jam kerja.. hiks..hiks.. Sangking pengennya online pernah juga terpikir ga ada messengger, chatting pake email dari kantor pun jadi ha…ha..

Seminggu ini rasanya lebih disibukkan oleh aktivitas training, serasa kuliah lagi.  Tapi ga apa-apalah, belajar. Ada senang dan susahnya juga pindah ke tempat baru. Yang pasti buat mindahin barang-barang dari Bandung pasti repot. Tapi yang lebih susah lagi nyari kos di Kuta, gile saya dan beberapa anak yang datang belakangan susah amat nyari kos. Dari daftar sekitar 30-an rumah kosan yang diberikan dari kantor rasanya dalam satu hari sudah saya datangi lebih dari 2/3nya dan hasilnya semuanya penuh!.

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It has been a month since I write my last post. What can I say, I just felt very disappointed when I was writing my last post. At that time I knew that I have failed in the Toshiba global recruitment.  Thanks to the overconfident, it made me feel down for a few days especially since It has been a very long recruitment. I’m just tired since for that event, I have to miss the interview in one of my favorite company.  Even before I graduated, I was thinking of  having a job in that company. Yeah great! Read the rest of this entry »

I’m sorry, I really am. I have failed you again and again. And now I don’t know what to say anymore. I will have to be a burden for you AGAIN!. You’ll say it is OK but I know that it is definitely NOT. I can’t let it happened again but it does. I just hope I can accept the fact and stand up again.

I’m sorry, I really am…